I grew up in a loving Christian family and was taught from a young age about God’s goodness and deep love for me. However, while hearing those truths, I was also enduring sexual assault within my family. I started to blame God for the brokenness of man and felt an overwhelming sense of false abandonment, unable to understand how those two realities could exist together. I began to question if God loved me so abundantly how He would allow an eight-year-old to go through sexual assault for two years. Looking for answers to an unfamiliar situation, I found pornography and began to turn to it as a way to cope. Shame gradually took root in my heart. Although I continued attending church, participating in Bible studies, and serving, I lived a divided life—appearing faithful outwardly while feeling broken and unworthy inwardly. Over time, my thoughts shifted from believing God did not love me to believing He could not love me because of my brokenness. After nine years of living under the weight of shame and guilt, God met me in my room at my lowest point and opened my eyes to His testimony. I finally understood His forgiveness and the new life offered through Jesus Christ. Since then, my life has been completely transformed. By His grace, I am walking in freedom and am sustained by His goodness, His truth, and His unfailing love. My hope is no longer in myself, but in God’s unchanging character and redeeming love.